When I am going through the ugliest and the saddest, I tend to feel like it would just never change. It will always be ugly. It will always be sad. There’s just no turning back from it
Looking at what I see it makes it stay and not go. The longer I focus on it, the more I feel unworthy. Until………..
until I TURN AWAY. Turn away from what I am seeing to what I cannot. Looking past the sad and the ugly. Changing my viewpoint. Getting out of my head. Getting UP from my bed and facing a CHANGE.
This is when the ash changes. The sadness feels different. And the view has a totally different design.
I look to what is DEEP DOWN in me the TRUTH. The truth that sets free. That I can be anything I want to be, but not based on what I feel. I can be living NY truth. Not what is being done to me. I can rise out of the ash. I can STAND.
Standing up means I shake off the ash. The sadness and the ugly? It leaves.